One of the autonomous projects I’m working on is this one with the work title ‘Living in boxes’.
There was a time I was ‘living in my head’. Thoughts were controlling my emotions. It was a way to handle feelings. Afraid of being hurt I almost litterally was putting my head in a box. It felt save not to feel.
But there was only place for one head in that box. And because I was hiding it was hard to see for the people around me how I was doing. And although I was hiding, there was a desire to be seen. I was feeling lonely a lot. I was handling the pain by running away or just thinking the feelings away.
I’ve been in a lot of nice places without being there. Although my body was standing there, in my head I was somewhere else. I didn’t see the beauty of the surroundings.
In this series I want to show how I was locking myself up in a box. Here you can see some experiments I made to come to the right picture.